Introduction I have been looking back on my life a lot in the past year. I have seen the good things I have done and the bad things as well. Some decisions I made decades ago would not change even …
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We all have a complicated life. Some of us have problems with finances, some of us with friends, some of us with the lost of a loved one, and some have problems with peers and parents growing up. I am going to focus on the latter. I am focusing on a problem I have had since I was seven. It has been difficult for me to comprehend because the Bible says,
Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice: 32 And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.
The main point is “Be kind on to another”. When people can never be kind it is hard to put away the bitterness.
Childhood was Difficult and not Happy
I have always believed childhood should be a happy time. A time to learn, to grow up, to experience new things all the time, but now I look back a believe that childhood is a rough hard road that we need to battle. We grow strength from learning from our challenges, unfairness, and the neglect we had as a child. When we grow up we are responsible for ourselves and have full control.
School was not always great
There are reasons I believe this. One of the main ones is because of all the troubles I had in school. I was always harassed in elementary school. My step-father, which I will get to soon, did not believe me, my mother did although. When I was in public school my sister saw kids pushing me around, calling me names, and even trying to pick a fight.
When I was in the second grade I begged my mother to take me out of public school. She did and put me into a Christian school. I made a few friends there, which are still friends today, but there were more jerks then nice people. I still got picked on, but the teachers and the principal did something about it. I even got into a couple fights my four years there. One was when we were on our ski trip. When the principal found out he pulled the guy off the slopes and sat him in the ski resort. The principal also suspended him. My friend left that school and went to a different Christian school so I went with them.
School gets better
This is the school I graduated from and the church I go to today. Here I had more friends, but had some religious differences. There were a few people I wish were never there, but we cannot have a day go the way we want it to all the time. Some things happen for a reason, because God has a purpose for it. One thing I have learned from what I put up with through school is always be kind to people around you. You may never know if a person is having a good day or bad day, lost a loved one or expecting a newborn, or has a lot of stress on their mind or is the happiest person on earth. Keep your mind open because you may be there to save a person or they are there to save you.
Father issues since I was a child
Now earlier I mentioned about my step-father not believing me on the problems I had in school. Well it did not stop there. I do not always believe a person at first, but when it gets consistent then I get curious if it is true or not. That has never been my step-dad.
When I wanted to go out to eat on Sunday after church I knew I had to bother my mother. If I even mentioned it to my step-father he would not take us out. Then I wondered if he did not take us because we asked to go. I thought he did not like us asking to go out to eat. Now I believe it was because it was not his idea. Looking back in life with my step-father he was and is a self-centered, egotistical, selfish, jerk. My whole life I have never liked people like this. The last decade it has been a lot worse. As of New Year’s Day I have had enough! I have cut him off as my step-father, I am no longer talking to him, nor offering any help. It is over 30 years of he is always right and everyone else is always wrong. What happened that Sunday is not really significant. I will say he was saying I was wrong and I had non-argumentative proof that I was right. When a person cannot admit they are wrong sincerely they are guilty of pride and arrogance.
“The fear of the LORD is to hate evil: pride, and arrogancy, and the evil way, and the froward mouth, do I hate.”
You may wonder why I would cut him out of my life. Well it is not as simple as going out to eat after church. He has always been negative. I have been ambitious since I was in high school. Words affect you especially if you hear them your entire life. When all you hear are negative word from a person they make you think negative. Although I have always had a drive to be someone better than him, better than me. I always want to improve myself one way or another. So it has always been like an ongoing fight that no one ever wins. It is no longer worth being near such a negative person that it holds my life, my mind back so much I cannot believe in myself. Now I am focusing entirely on myself. It may sound selfish, but I have given so much of my life away it is time to live. It may not stay constant. Once I am living maybe things will settle, but until then it is time to start my life.
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(“EPHESIANS 4:31 KJV “Let All Bitterness, And Wrath, And Anger, And Clamour, And Evil Speaking, Be Put Away From You, With All Malice:””)
(“PROVERBS 8:13 KJV “The Fear Of The LORD [Is] To Hate Evil: Pride, And Arrogancy, And The Evil Way, And The Froward Mouth, Do I Hate.””)
We all should have hope, even when our days get dark as night all we have is hope. According to Dictionary.com Hope is defined as the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best. I know not everything turns out the way we believe to be the best, but we do not know what road we are on in life until we take the first step. I takes hope to keep traveling down the road and not turning back.
What We Believe our Destination is and What God has Planned for Us
–Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
I do not know about you but I have had some bumps in my life. I have taken wrong turns, ran into obstacles, and even stopped because I was not sure what to do. What I do know to do now is trust God.
Ever since I was a child I had a picture with this scripture on it. It has taken me a long time to understand what it means. If we have faith in Him we will always have hope.
When we are making plans in our life we need to make sure to let Him in on it. He will let us know if He approves our if He does not. I do not believe He is going show disapproval by having our parents, spouse, or siblings arguing with us on what we have planned to do. I do believe that our subconscious, that voice in our head, tells us, “It is not a good idea at least not right now.” then that is God speaking to us. We need to listen to God and take his advice or we will not live life to the fullest like He wants us to.
When in Darkness…
When in darkness there is a ray of hope. Life does get pretty dark at times, sometimes so dark you think you will never find your way out. What you need to do is open your eyes and find the ray of hope deep in your soul. Trust me I have been there.
I am going tell you why. It was about five years ago I lost my job because I did not follow a procedure correctly. Now about six months before that I had a minor stroke and I lost some memory and had, and still do, some thinking of words issues. Well my former employer did not believe me about the memory issues, but I did win my unemployment. Even though it was a horrible job I was angry, depressed, in fear of not be able to pay my bills, and blamed myself for even applying for the job in the first place. To top it off my parents did not support me emotionally. It took me a couple months to start looking for a job. My mom told me I better start looking for a job the next day. I was angry for losing my job and now angry at her for lack of compassion. All I could see was darkness. I even thought the only way out was suicide. If I did not grow up in a Christian School and go to church I may not be typing this blog now. It took me awhile to stop being furious. I am still a little angry for getting fired but I think I take it too personal.
What got me through? It was Hope. I started going back to church. I went to the church that was the leader of the school I graduated from. I got back together with a few friends, my choir teacher, and my pastor and principal. I haven’t been for awhile because of work and overtime. I still watch Turning Point with Dr. David Jeremiah on Ion Television when I don’t go to church. I use to feel I was going nowhere and now I feel I am moving forward. I do not know where I am going now but I will find out when I am ready. What I do have, that I did not have five years ago, is hope. Hope is all we need to move forward in life. If you ever feel you are down and never moving forward then trust God and that ray of hope will shine.
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HONESDALE, Pa. — A cross and star in a Wayne County community are the centers of controversy, and now an effort is underway to keep them in the face of a possible legal battle. Newswatch 16 first told you Monday about the letter objecting to the cross and star in a public park in Honesdale.…
I have been hearing of this on the news for a couple days and it is really bothering me. We live in a country where we have Freedom of Religion, but if we express that freedom people get upset. Whatever happened to our rights our forefathers fought for us over 240 years ago. If you don’t remember what I am talking about I will refresh your memory.
Bill of Rights: Amendment 1 Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion or prohibiting the free exercise thereof, or abridging the freedom of speech or of the press, or the right of the people peaceably to assemble and to petition the government for a redress of grievances.
Maybe our government is trying to get us to give up our freedom slowly so they can control us. It has seemed like we are getting closer and closer to Socialism, social and economic doctrine that calls for public rather than private ownership or control of property and natural resources. Our government owns a lot now and there are so many people on welfare. I hope our country becomes great again like President Donald Trump said he would make it.
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